Dive in My Darling

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Jardin Luxembourg

He was a different kind of person. The beautifully damaged kind of person. But I believe that we are all, beautifully damaged in some way or another. He loved me and cared for in a way that nobody has cared and loved for me.

It was different.

He was different.

He was used to being alone that when I stepped into his life, it made him feel like an earthquake had hit him. Who wouldn't be afraid of that?

I am understanding the notion of how men and women are different in this aspect. I am understanding that men are far more afraid of attachment than women. It is different for them. When he feels like he's attaching himself to a level he doesn't expect, that's when he just wants to be alone.

Because, being alone is safer. It hurts less. It doesn't gravitate you to an attached bond. A bond you feel that would be temporary at some point in your life. Temporary to a point where you'll only be able to put your arms around the other person's name.

When you think of this, you only want to be attached to your inner-being. That's your comfort zone. The zone you're used to. The zone that doesn't let you down.

That's what he was. And, it's only natural to feel that way.

There are times I see him thinking. Thinking if he delved into something that's wrong. Thinking why it doesn't feel right. Thinking when it will come crashing down because it has happened before.
It has happened to all of us at some point. Hasn't it?

This is the very nature of all relationships in our life. We will always feel this way at some point. We'll all feel a little damaged, wanting to be detached and alone.

But, it's about having faith that things will work. Having faith that letting things take its course will get you to your end-destination. You can't live out of fear. You gotta do what you have to do.

Living out of fear will only make you miss out. Miss out on the good things that you can only experience in the relationships you form throughout your life.

Diving into something and giving it your best won't hurt.

Regrets is what will hurt.

A feeling that will make you drown in a painful emotional death, filling your heart with unnerving emotions, grabbing hope out of your mind's socket that constantly follows you around.

What's the point in that?

Dive in my Darling, Dive in.

My hope for you, my dear, is that you'll eventually find someone that will make you dive in to something that will make you feel good. Even if it's not me, then my hope for you will be someone that makes you happy, eventually.